You cannot RISE without recognizing what you are rising from.
I’ve decided to get real & raw with you.
I am currently diving into Meggan Watterson’s book Reveal: A Sacred Manual for Getting Spiritually Naked.
I purchased her book last night after sitting with the thought that in order to embody the divine feminine we need to look at what rape and violation does do the feminine consciousness and what this means for anyone intuitive enough to pick up on it.
This is not something I personally want to spear-head – if you get what I mean.
So I avoided writing this.
I just put the thought in the back of my mind and there it wiggled.
Perhaps I should give you some more context.
The week before all of this came to be I worked with a long- term client of mine who remembered and then revealed a violating sexual experience that she went through when she was much younger.
For her the session was cathartic and empowering.
Here lay her story – deeply buried- finally ready to be revealed and released.
Empowering beyond belief .
But for me the experience left me feeling uneasy.
Like a deep wallowing unease, which if left unchecked would consume me into the darkness where I would feel pain and then more pain and more pain… beyond measure.
I realized, a couple of days later, that what I was experiencing, was not counter-transference but collective pain.
The pain of the feminine being violated and it hurt me to my core.
Now, I’ve worked with loads of rape cases (deeply saddening and entirely true) and I have never experienced such an embodied response to hearing a rape story.
[ As a side note: For my fellow therapists – this was all debriefed with a supervisor – so hear me when I say I believe this to be a heightened response to collective pain as opposed to individual pain.]
I believe that as more and more people are hearing the call to RISE the collective fear of embodying the feminine is becoming heightened.
One of the fear responses is that rising will result in more physical trauma and pain.
I know that it is a collective wound which my client falls in to and that I was afraid to venture into and feel.
Here’s the thing: there already are wonderful teachers and pioneers in this teaching us to root down to rise up, Lisa Lister – here’s looking at you.
But what I now know is that the deeper you feel the more you reveal and the key to freedom and embodiment lies there.
So I leave you with this: you cannot RISE without recognizing what you are rising from.
If we are too afraid
then we perpetuate pain
and remain small
we know that we cannot do that anymore.